想法

话说爱情，暂时不是很想谈，原因就是没有找到我要的条件。。
什么条件？就是学业比我好，长的好看以上，和就是经济稳固的男人，有才艺更让我欣赏的
此外，要man点的和体贴。就算找到，这个人也应该没什么看上我的啦，毕竟我不是什么美女。（这就是现实的残酷），我的要求很高？这对我的未来而想的哟~哈哈
那只好慢慢等~没人追？有啊~不合条件，而且我说了，只能当朋友吧~这表明我不会跟你交往的。。。虽然说时间可以培养感情，你不符合我想要，是不行的。毕竟我是属于high taste的，我承认。。
我宁愿当老孤婆，无所谓啊~那不寂寞吗？有点，还是看缘分怎样啦

就每次看电视剧，很羡慕男女主角的爱情故事，毕竟男主角这么帅~唉~~可是艰辛的爱情我是不能像剧情坚持下去，毕竟情况都不顺利，我就是放弃，除非缘分说我们适合的，哪怕试一试也没关系，哈哈><看太多戏了呀~

我现在不是想要男朋友，毕竟就是这些关系总是不持久，而且没有安全感，到最后还是分手的下场，我才不这么能耐，我想要的就是一个符合条件的好老公，这样的关系比较有把握，就算你怀孕都不会丢你啦~找结婚也无所谓啊~幸福就是嘛~在此祝福selina和她的丈夫永远恩爱~哈哈


总觉得时间过的很快，才发现下个月大考了呀~OMO..
问题就是syllabus还没学完，很多lecturer去kursus，虽然lecturer不在没有课是很好，可是不像学校今天老师没来就这样，但这个就要跟着jam kredit，总之就是要补课，星期六和星期日补课，有时还上夜课。哎哟~~~

不知道我住宿舍就变成是省钱还是减肥的生活，因该两个都是吧~
如果在家，妈妈住的菜，就算炸的都会吃，也许这里卖的食物太油腻，油炸的食物很少去碰，不然豆豆就出现，很就没吃goreng goreng的小吃了。。

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friends..
I have...once...
in prmary school, the friend that close is Lim Sim Yee..still in contact..but for future, is just common friend as I didn't have any close'st friend now..
I'm just like the seed of the lalang...where the wind blows me, and where I will go..means where I will go ,the friend that I meet not always the same..
what happen to my old friends in secondary school?
ya..I have it once...and the memories are still on my mind...if they still remember me? I just know that I'm like invisicle people in their life now..
yeah I'm invicible...seeing the pictures they go out, yeah I'm jealous...
yeah..we are far away..and this seem my friendship with them is far away...
I'm not stupid and not kind hearted
...

what about my colleague friend?
I didn't know their heart are very friendly or jut pretended..
I'm just smile and just stand what them doing is annoying...

I'm just miss my dear old friend...everytime I want to meet them, there must reason that cannot to be go..
why?I'm just tell myself they are busy for STPM...
and I'm right?but seeing the facebook pictures..I can see they are happy enough without me...next time, I will not do such wishes to ask u all go out with me..I'm such person that not valueable to go ask go out with..

about te matter, why I'm not ask u to go my house on raya....
u know who I am talking about..yeah its you if u are the person..
I tell you the reason..I ald ready sick of rejected invitation, every year I ask you to come and sometimes beg you to come, u will not come over, it just a simple come and eat, I know ur house matter condition, that's why not invited..as I will know u are not coming..u feel sad? but how I felt over the years being...asked you...and the raya is not vauable to go, everyone is busy with their vacation on raya, so I will not asking everyone..just think me as a stranger.. and the person u not know..
I'm being glad that I'm alone.yeah...very good to be alone..like the feel when shopping alone..talkin to myself...


time...
moves so fast...a month is gone..
it wll takes 2 years for me to graduate my diploma..
so fast...


sleep?
not very well...as the bed i not fluffy enough, the pillow like wood..
and the roomate which makes noise..
I can't sleep with open light..
just stand it...lately I will able to makes it habit..

the feeling of living in the cell of prison,,but stil good enough than the life for a prisoner...just my heart is prisoned

我只知道，昨天如果我没动手，后果应该不堪设想

前天：最后一天上班，好想赶快放工，因为我真的很累了~

昨天：侥幸还是倒霉？？
大约3点下午，就乘坐妈妈的摩托，但骑摩托不是我==
就去提款机拿出几百块，去到Maybank用银行汇交学费...
大概3分钟后，就出去找妈妈，刚好妈妈在maybank对面的kfc Park摩托。。
当妈妈想把摩托开机时，突然就来了一个印度中年人，不算年轻，有点老，但不是老人。。
那印度人，是男的，脸旁有2-3粒“豆子”，有点像乞丐。。
还以为他是要非法收车费的，但和我想像是相反，但共同点是钱。。
他从他的口袋伸出小刀子，指向我和妈妈，当时没有人注意到，他的动作不大，我和妈妈没什么大的表情，（迟钝？反应慢?没反应？）
当时心里想大喊，但我没这样做。。
那印度人握着他的刀说“我想要钱吃饭，如果你们想保留你们的脸的话。。。。。）
当时的我不想听完他说什么，看着老妈害怕的表情，想拿出口袋里的钱，、。。
当我老妈还拿钱包的时候我就冷静的从口袋拿出刚才交学费剩下的2块钱，给了他说：“这个钱应该足够你吃饭吧”，不知道是我没反应还是迟钝还是冷静
那印度人，拿了钱，就走了

回家后，觉得刚才是有点可怕，但我没想到，我可以这么酷？哈哈
还好我的几百块的钱和刚才剩下的钱分开放，不然他应该拿完了吧？
应该只是个侥幸吧？我的几百块和宝贝手机没被拐走，不然我真的心情不好。。
也就是侥幸，没遇到那种恐怖拿着硫酸或巴冷刀那种。。。
也许是出门前心里对上帝祈祷希望今天一切顺利~



各位读者，出门要小心~~~

everything will end..

ya...everthing is end, but my life is not end yet..but one day will end..but dunno is when...

actually internet realtionship is not always will last forever, from the begining I just simply try how it feel...I become the "mice" in my love experiment..
just conclusion if everyday chat but if not met..the feeling will become fade and at last everything will end...now I feel want become matured bit...because before I'm are not grow up yet..still so childsih, at last I know what is "love"

my exam also end, and I dun want to carry any subject..the lab report make me do till want dying, 5 lab report every week till half year..>100 lab report I done jor..so tired...hope my result will good, because I feel so hard for this exam, because first time feel so much pressure, but finally exam end feel release bit..

now holiday I become so sad, because just staying at house and I dunno want to go where..
friends just keeping busy all the time, never mind I know..
so I will work gua for this 2 months holiday..staying at house so boring...
old bistro..is the choice...

幸运的人就知道，我是怎么了~

为什么这样写呢？读了，就知道~

提前：
好久没写部落格了，嘻嘻~
今天才这么勤劳去写....恩~

现在的哦：
明知道这个星期有一连串的test&quiz...本人还这么relax..
明知道还有2个星期要大考，既然还这么relax..
哇哈哈~

最近：
就是在中国网站认识了...
对方是男的...
21岁...
给妹妹看他的样子，妹妹说ok,
跟爸妈说，怕他是个骗子~其实我也担心这一点
但我就是和他这样....网恋和异地恋...
2个月了...
但我不是100%相信他，怕他是花心，
虽承诺要把我娶了，因为是没有见过面，
我需要是安全感~
网恋和异地恋，让我没有感到安全感，
但和他，我觉得很sweet~
可是我还是要有心里准备，
不是结婚的准备，是被抛弃的准备
以后失恋没这么痛苦难受

近来：
嫉妒+心痛
为什么？
因为他已经找到了对象~
虽然表面说祝福，但还是在疑问为什么不是我？
没办法，爱情不能勉强的
他们这么sweet，会让我不是很舒服，
因为没像他们那样~
还是做回自己算了

爱情：
虽然表面说我是恋爱的，
但我没这样觉得，因为远距离的关系
但我还是喜欢他，爱他
毕竟远距离，不踏实，
单身的时候，就渴望连爱，
那现在恋爱，反而带来心痛，因为我很想他~

现在的我：
已经习惯一个人 ，
享受一个人
朋友只是偶尔的，
开心不开心都会把心事写在手机的note里
真正能陪我的朋友，是没有的
反而我的死活，他们都没有在乎过，
还是同房的学姐对我比较好~

很想：
学习化妆~
是他的要求，因为会看到比较有气质
恩~我会学，但我不知道要跟谁学~
反正学习化妆我也没什么吃亏的~

好吧~写到这里
反省一下，我要努力读书了，
我不想carry不及格的科目，
不想重做同样的lab report
加油~

JY Xthese daysX

monkeys~

made by monkeys

the process of making slices potato..

guess what?it is meat..haha..

agar plate..need to be incubate..
these days...life become more horrible
now I know how that time comunise 14 days "darurat" life..
its happen..the comunist(monkey)..and the victim(hostel student)

Because our hostel beside is forest, the monkey frequently come to hostel to find foods~

before the attack, these 2 days was in peace..but after 2-3 days...nightmare comes...
the monkeys ia all over hostel..and like "kepung" our hostel...the rubbish bin...hardly to describe..the most horrible is they can in the room..

they are smart..they pull out the window glass and in the room...girls scream and monkey sound..horrible...

some room being attacked..they take away all the foods in trash and the rooms that being attacked..


the monkeys are so wild..even u scream or shoo them..they r not afraid..but they will "kejar" ler..

every day do lab report make my life so sianzz..
I can live without televisyen jor..
everyday stay at my desk for hours to finish the lab report..

x近来x

可怜的宝贝手机，对不起~T.T

不明的砍伐树木

一连串的报告，实验，有时会觉得赶来赶去，觉得蛮无聊，加上连接不断的Quiz,Test..就变成一整晚都在书桌上...

近来差不多每天都下雨，雨水把莲花池也淹没了，住在最低楼的朋友的鞋子别冲走，猴子因没有食物就侵入朋友的房间，还弄破窗玻璃，原来它们很聪明，就算女生大叫都不会被吓走，也许是习惯了吧..害到我一个人在房间感到不安..因为不知明猴子的家园被砍了一些，猴子来宿舍找吃的频率也特别多，垃圾桶都被倒翻，垃圾布满地上，臭味，苍蝇多多...

原来1月生日的朋友蛮多，我的生日也快到了，今年的生日看来是一个人庆祝的啦...